Ever since my surgery I have felt different. Almost different I can't completely put into words how it feels inside only that it almost feels like I shouldn't have survived. I don't know if that makes sense to anyone else but that is how I feel on a day to day basis. I have a wife and two nine year olds that love me unconditionally and yet I can't figure out why. I feel like I don't deserve anything I have and why I haven't been able to straighten out my life since my surgery. Almost like I shouldn't have survived. Before my operation, life was simple, work a lot and get paid and survive by paying the bills. I used to make a living by working in construction. I tried to do my old job buy I only found out that I couldn't. Nobody understood at my old job.
I am currently unemployed and trying to figure out what the future holds for
Me and my family but as it stands right now it doesn't look promising. I am not
A stupid man, but I have been thinking about alternate options for my future
And I have only come up with nothing. I truly want to provide for my family
But I can't do what I used to. I would do anything in the world for them. So if
Anybody has any ideas as to what I can do to make money now I would love to heat it.