Time to off load my anger

Hi everyone

I feel particularly angry and frustrated today about what has happened over the past few months so I think it is time to offload some of the anger and channel it more productively.Unfortunately for you that means you get to hear all the things that frustrate me!!

Before the AD I was working full time as a nurse in a very busy department,I seemed to thrive on stressful situations but definitely got stressed out when I couldn't change things the managers had made decisions about.In my 'spare' time I am a member of the Territorial Army and had done operational tours in Iraq in 2004 and laterly Afghanistan in 2009. I had maintained my fitness to a high degree for my age (I am 57) and managed to pass the required fitness tests for the military. I ate healthily and enjoyed a good social life, so why did this happen to me? If the truth was known it was always going to happen to me. My family have a genetic disposition to this condition and no amount of running away was going to stop it happening. My youngest brother died aged 50 of Aneurism and 2 cousins aged 51 and 52 also died. My other brother is alive and well 15 years after AD and heart attack aged 37 at the time.

I now find myself in a position of accepting that I have had a very enjoyable life by running away from it and not wrapping myself in cotton wool. I have bungee jumped,white water rafted, scuba dived,abseiled and many other adventurous things like that and I don't regret any of them. At this point in my life I still intend to live life to the full but with less strenuous activities obviously. I have a son and grandson in Canada and a son and granddaughter in California also a son and 2 grandchildren locally. I will use whatever time I have left on this earth to continue to enjoy my life to the full. If I find work to stresssful when I return in September I intend to take retirement. I would be retiring from the TA next year anyway so thats not an issue.

I am ready to move on and put the anger and bitterness behind me so thanks for listening to my rants. Its great to know that this group is here to support each other.

Regards

Elaine

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