Aortic dissection, aortic aneurysm - The aorta - Life after an aortic dissection
I've tried, so many times, to write my story, but I can't seem to get the words out. In the beginning, I was depressed so much, feeling like I'd lost so much of myself. Now, I float through days wondering if I'm doing enough. Of course, I've learned to make time for my kids and to spend a little bit of my day with something that makes me happy. But being only 47 years old and only able to work part time (the meds, oh boy!) has put quite a strain on the finances and now I'm wondering if I've gotten too comfortable being the convalescent. My husband and I own a business so I still have that work responsibility, but I'm starting another part time job next week. Frankly, I'm terrified. Will it be too much? Will I fall behind on my responsibilities to my family and my own business because I'm too tired to do anything else? I wish I could know if I'm doing the right thing. My doctors tell me I'll live a long time as long as I keep on doing what I've been doing, but I kind of feel like I'm not doing anything at all but existing. What is a long time, anyway? 20 years? more? Should I work harder to be normal and not worry so much about making things easy on myself? I just wish I knew...
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